I got my first canvas at the dollar store. At home, I put the canvas aside and decided to start linking the past with the present. Instead of just picking up the old tools (and yes, some of the inks and oils seriously dried up in the last 20 years), I pulled out a few pencil drawings and gave them a new background. I "grounded" them into my new life. Merging the young artistic woman with the healer of today was illuminating and powerful.
Similar to old photos, our creative projects bring us back to the moment in the past, and especially your art will evoke the vision and focus you once experienced. It was challenging putting colour around those drawings and I hoped it would all turn out well. The paper was old and I hadn't prepped it for the use of water.
But, there was an adventurous moment about this, which was similar to daily healing work I do now. People come for healing and yet are unprepared for health and wellbeing. It sounds strange, yet, being healthy and happy is impossible to imagine for most people. My job is to hold a space of adventure and possibilities and I have no idea how their bodies, minds and soul will interact with the healing Grace during the session. Will the light flow smoothly like paint on good paper or is the body dried up and stagnant that the light flows intermittently and disjointed, like an old brush making marks here and there trying to suggest a pain-free existence.
Holding space and seeing the miraculous is what makes healing possible. It didn't surprise me when quickly my next paintings showed up as visions. I would wake up in the morning with a clear image of a painting or several pieces of the painting would unfold in my inner vision over the course of a few days. I painted them as closely as I would see them. Wildcrafting beneath the Tree of Life and Mother of the First Fruit Harvest are the 2 examples that emerged this spring and summer. More details about the individual paintings here.
Soon after the visions, alchemical painting emerged. Another aspect of my healing work, I thought. Again, not a surprise. Transforming illness to health appears very magical. In healing I know that all is perfect AS IS. What appears to be ill is only an appearance. We see it that way and feel it that way in our bodies. Yet, we also know that we are fashioned of light and love. So, we have to transform the one into the other.
I began doing the same on the canvas. The first alchemical painting was the Eye of Wisdom...
to be continued...
I am a healer, spiritual teacher and artist.